....Waited another day

Friday night,,, 1 am laptop on my lap and cell phone in my hand
So many things running through my mind and time slipping like a sand,
Do I seek my answers or is it that I know them and don't want to accept..
I take a deep sigh and wonder why...
Am I lonely or is it just the way I want to be...
And this thought reminds me of a beautiful song.. the lemon tree..

I write so many times and delete so many lines..
Just then my cell phone rings and everything seems so fine..
I pick up the call and hear a familiar voice..
My heart skips a beat and I managed to say "Hello.."

Silence on both the ends..and I am already in flashback
Suddenly a voice from other end ..."Sorry"
My voice is cracking and a tear falls down my cheek..
There is so much to say but I have no words to speak

Again a long pause and a debate between my heart and mind..
Mind says no not again and heart says but once he was mine..
Those beautiful memories flash by and then those tears and another deep sigh
So many unanswered phone calls and not a single message reply.

"I am really sorry", I heard him say..
"This is not the first time that you just walked away.."
"I miss you"..this was all I wanted him to say..
And everything seemed so perfect just once again

Those sweet memories and long night talks..
Every moment so fresh..those long walks..
With a smile on my face I said, "I miss you too"
Just to realize that I was talking to myself all the way through..